The Glow Of Desperation

by Autumn Tears

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    64+ minute limited CD features a 20 page lyric booklet lavishly illustrated with paintings by award winning artist Marcela Bolívar.

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Instrumental
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Time lingers  As a cloud  Surrounds me Preserving all that was And all that I am See me now Motionless and free As I expand into its stillness  (See me now) Incandescent faces Marveling at the wonder Staring back at me I hear their words Yet they do not speak  Their sky descends and hides my face  My body fallsThrough the mirror Casting shadows in the stream My wings unfurlSee me now Blooming meadows in winter She shivers in the sun I can still hear her singing  As she rises from the water Her wild despair growing  As her voice howls with the wind Sending cries into the void  I cling to the hope   That all good things will come Tomorrow will fulfill its promises   Climbing up from that dream I see a vision Simple and pure  Like a child song Beautiful words I long to hear Nothing ever changes And nothing was ever broken See me now For these are the seeds of history
3.
Floating up from a dream  I tremble with cold  In emptiness I am whole  To nourish desperation  And the night lasts longer  A glowing dark  Weariness overcoming Fools laughter  Destined to fall  Groping blindly for anything  Slipping forward into nothing  I surrender to all things that come  As I sing odes to my history  Knowing all can be rewritten  woven into strength  I hear the whispers  Hold up the sky  Nothing to hold me back  Consuming the layers of time  Knowing all was decided   Inevitable  Endlessly caught in the undertow   Finding my way to the bottom  Finally I am the one with fullness of life
4.
Reunion 03:50
The Writing on the veins in my body  A story of my forgotten childhood   The hidden thoughts wrought into my bones  Unattainable comfort lies just beyond   ...my fingertips   Promises of something beautiful   A song like a sharpened spear That pierces the sky and sea Like the lash of a wound That falls on my brow  As a fortress of my own weakness  I am slowly forced to my knees  As if I became a stone   Becoming My own symbolic being Alone (and drowning in silence)  The days are detached My body buried deep in the snow Frost piecing bitter kisses (my cheeks) My soul goes bare trying to be free itself from this frozen shell The hidden thoughts wrought into my bones  Unattainable comfort lies just beyond ...my fingertips  
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Frozen moments like these Are burning from the inside Beaming from a newborn sun Splintering my deepest sleep. Afe from all my days to come And you…… Rust and painFitting like new skin You speak wordsSo quietly.Yet you still can't sing Sweetest scent of primrose mist - Fragments of youDrawn together A shadow of somethingStirring at my side Chiseled in anger.Hiding soft smiles Twilight, breathe on me! We set a great wreathShimmering and bright Sharp eyes in the night! Here we lay to rest our children, Bearing offeringsAnd adornments Songs among quietude A pale and scented gloaming - Voices caroling so softly, Becoming what they are to me Come forth and trembleIn the flesh the Earth A radiant ent measure of Joy
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Voices from the sky Warm, ringing tones in my ears Soothing songs from the beginning of time Coloring the sounds of tomorrow's sleep  Coloring the sounds of tomorrow's sleep Sleep Losing myself for a chance for divinity Eyes to the sun, shadows under clouds Soft lashes sweeping my face,  A lighter mystery transforming day Coming from silence, so long and so deep Loving, softly sweeping bright billows  Make me a child again if just a day Faded grass blossoming, hiding our slumber Never to wake never to weep Faded grass blossoming, hiding our slumbering Never to wake never to weep Never to wake never to weep I am listening
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How still the day And cold as night When shadows come  From winter’s light The sun reflects  His queen, the moon Who pales his radiant Crown of gold No breeze nor bird Disturbs this view A vacant sky Of cloudless blue In darkness formed The wormIts life from birth Enwombed by the earth From tree to ground  A seed is bound For life and death Yet skyward it longs to grow Dreams without hope Are wasted and lost Withering in your heart I knowWhere there’s light A darkness is It calls you to a soft embrace So dream Your dream of life unknown Unknown could be.
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Sons and daughters of the earth An endless list of names An endless list of lives That echo ‘neath the glass And cling to us  They cling to us in shadows They cling to us in light As clouds and hills share secrets In a frayed summer sky   If we listen closely we can almost hear them If we listen closely...        As chiseled stone into effigies  All words are preserved Memories of yesterday evolved into dreams  If we listen closely we can almost hear them If we listen closely...If we listen closely  As the nightly breeze tickles the skin We succumb to the melodies Of ancient lullabies Bleeding through the stillness With the wind growing stronger Blowing at our backs Growing stronger, and stronger  Piercing the skies Growing stronger and stronger Shattering the glass Growing stronger and stronger Piercing the night If you listen closely you can almost hear them
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Succumb 04:07
Hands pull me down The world falls away below me Rain slowly passes From rooftops and treesIt sings in my ears Flying against the wind, rain in my eyes Building my room up around me  The window is hallowed with budding blossoms, And earthen ties Wary and lost, Wanting to cry... I give in With simple words  An epic story is told  Tales of sun and rising seas A dream carefully woven into a new truthI listen in awe... and tremble  Our spirits rejoice Dancing on shadows of footsteps  Echoes of laughter in fractures of the fray  Crumbling walls in palaces of song Eyes shine on the nameless Giving in to dread shamelessly gleaned Nourish the changes, inside and around you  Take refuge beneath deep rooted trees  And light dims... as night comes
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I watch it fadeInto the deep I feel the weight Still anchor meI know its secrets Are still watching me Once I sailed into a storm Unintending,Unattended, all alone Was I dreaming? No one saw me No one helped me as I hailed the wind Over breakers Under veils of rushing water This weight of mine  That holds my freedomIt pulls me down But I will fight for liberation To find some peace at last In the distance, there it was Moving closer Eyes wide open through the storm Pushing forwards No one held me No one there to keep me from my fate  No one heard me Screaming through the rushing water on my face I’ll take my chance To lose this burden It pulls me down but I will seek some inspiration To wake my sleeping heart I’ll take this chance To lose this burden It pulls me down but I will search for revelation  Before I break apart All along, it’s where I left itWaiting, drifting undefended All along, you’re where I left youAll along, I left you Ah! Is this what you wanted?  Is this what you hoped for? Keep moving, don’t lose faith now! Make it what you wanted, Make it what you hoped for I can feel it calling meI know itI feel itI have itIt’s part of me I’ll take my chanceTo lose this burden It pulled me down but now I know The time has come To throw it overboard!I made this chance To lose this burdenIt pulled me down but I have found illumination The end becomes the start
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A silence laced with words Candles flickering to the cadence of my breath Fireflies painting the night Snow hallucinations gone in the blink of an eye The welling of water beneath me, from early morning’s rain, Which pools in the lip of the stream We share a likeness For this is the voice of spring My daughter sings to the sky  pulling down the stars, and strings them marigolds Weaving them into a crown   as her voice measures the distance Between stones and flying seeds For this is the voice of spring A blessing for exhausted ewes 
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Instrumental
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Stasis 03:54
Moonbeams pierce the soil Illuminating the moist Earth pressed against my skin Wrapped in silk and magma Gleams of frost shaping a reverie A fierce, fiery temple forged by a torrent of lesser souls Stifled in futility, sodden with mud, rain and pitiful cries Breathe in deeply the morning colors  Drink her dew from my hands Behold her madness beneath a feathered crown  Marvel at her wonder as she becomes you And there she rests upon the sea bitten shore  Amidst the foam and sand she writhes Feverish and alone, her aura grows  And blossoms into vivid radiance  As the sun quenches snow and rain dampens soil The Leaves are trembling in the air  The gentle light strays and vanishes and returns to chasten a lesser soul
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Winding roots slither into in the soil We rest with the stones and shadows The sunlight burrows deep Dancing through cracks in the soil And whispers of the dead guide us to the sky Measuring the starsas they guide the evening’s teeth Deep into my soft flesh Past secrets uncoil like hidden serpents Becoming part of our blood and bone Feathered gods sing to Mother Earth Disguised in tattered robes,  She sleeps where the air is milder  And sings to forget her woes Muffled suffering from a thousand wounds Comfort from a song A song that is charged with a thousand words And uttered from a thousand tongues Death cannot intimidate me The fury and calamity  Of a world unable to bend my will These limbs I wear only for show  I remain a statue A shadow beneath the dead leaves Blind to the beauty and deaf to the sounds  Aching with the birth of each new day Helpless, yet wiser than I will be today What I hold in my handsIs the weight of all things Death cannot intimidate me The fury and calamity  Of a world unable to bend my will These limbs I wear only for show  Helpless, yet wiser than I will be today What I hold in my heartIs the way of all things.
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Morning again, soothing sun Welcoming and warm, with undertones of dread An ill fated hour where words are filled with grieving joy And hope dissolves with each kept moment A light that comes from nowhere From dreams which I could not awaken A stillness neither beautiful nor comforting Falling back into the womb of the earth The night’s slow innocence takes it's toll on me The cruelty of time which I'm supposed to understand Leaving only a shell behind Morning again, soothing sun Welcoming and warm, with undertones of dread The ill fated hours ... the grieving joy of words A thin guise of hope stings more with each passing moment A rain washed wind swept summer breeze Hazy sunsets bleeding nature’s voices  Echoing empty in the morning mists Temptation longing beneath gray faces Dancing serpents, rising from their sleep No ordinary miracles shaping the hours Or stifling the still growing quietude 

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After the highly acclaimed 2020 double album "The Air Below The Water", AUTUMN TEARS is thrilled to present our newest offering "The Glow of Desperation", featuring 64 minutes of brand new music, presented as a limited CD and digital download.  
 
Once again featuring a fully orchestrated, classical ensemble as well as classical / opera singer & composer Caroline Clarke (Trovatori), singer / songwriter Tamar Singer (Zeresh, Cruel Wonders, Necromishka), singer / composer / vocal coach Anne "Anaé" Laurent (Anaé & The Petrichor, Adrana), tenor opera vocalist Darren Clarke (Trovatori), lead vocalist Agnete Mangnes Kirkevaag from the legendary Norwegian progressive metal act Madder Mortem, Mark Garrett from the avant garde, progressive death gaze / metal act Kardashev and classical / opera singer Ann-Mari Edvardsen Alexis, best known as the former vocalist of Norwegian doom metal / avant-garde band The 3rd and the Mortal (Nightswan, Painting on Glass, In This Room). Also returning is singer / songwriter Brona McVittie. Analog mastering by Michael Venia from Sound Mixology. 

The CD features a 20 page lyric booklet lavishly illustrated with paintings by award winning artist Marcela Bolívar - http://www.marcelabolivar.com

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released March 8, 2021

Composition, arrangements, piano, lyrics: Ted Tringo
Lead vocals, vocal / lyric arrangements, arrangements, piano, lyrics: Caroline Clarke
Lead vocals, vocal / lyric arrangements: Darren Clarke
Lead vocals, vocal / lyric arrangements: Anne "Anaé" Laurent
Lead vocals, vocal / lyric arrangements: Tamar Singer
Lead vocals, vocal / lyric arrangements: Mark Garrett
Lead vocals, vocal / lyric arrangements: Agnete M. Kirkevaag
Lead vocals, vocal / lyric arrangements: Ann-Mari Edvardsen Alexis
Lead vocals, vocal / lyric arrangements: Brona McVittie
Backing vocals: Marisa Frantz
Violin, viola: Jess Townsend
Cello:Tom McCluskey
Solo violin: Maria Grigoryeva
Trumpet, trombone: Kelly O'Donohue
Trumpet: Matt Giella
Trombone: María Gabriela Soto
Flute: Giulia Cacciavillani
Flute: Johann Rampon
Clarinet: Sasko Temelkoski
Timpani: Germàn Domador
Snare Drum: David Swanson
Drums and percussion: Kyle Tupper
Orchestral toms, cymbals, dhols / percussion: Dominik Redenczki
Piano: Joy Philips
Kamancheh performance / arrangements: Amir Mofrat
Ambience / arrangements: James Longley
Layout: Ted Tringo
Vocal engineering for Agnete: Anders Langberg
Saxophone, vocal engineering for Ann-Mari: Fabio Costantino
Vocal engineering for Mark: Nico Mirolla 
Mastering: Michael Venia from Sound Mixology

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After the highly acclaimed 2019 full length release "Colors Hidden Within the Gray", we are thrilled to present our newest offering "The Air Below The Water", featuring 90 minutes of brand new music.

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